No matter how many times I have done it, every book in still seems the same. No matter how long the week ahead, no matter what is on the agenda, its still the same feeling of dread.

I hate walking around the supermarket myself. I hate it because its when I am all alone looking for a little something to make my week ahead somewhat better. I hate it when the supermarket sucks and has a small collection of sweets and snacks. I just wasted my time outside just now. =(

Ack. It has almost been 5 months now. I still feel the very same since the moment I stepped into this. And I suddenly recall why I chose not to go to command school. The precise emotions, the apparent weakness within. Sigh. 539 days! Thats like forever!!!!!