Scaling a mountain is no easy task. As you approach the peak, your body tires, yet your mind gets excited, giving you the much needed boost to make it all the way, all the way to the top. So much of you wants to get to the top, and you probably will reach. At the top, we bask in the fruit of our labour for the moment, perhaps admire the majestic view. And that is it, suddenly we find ourselves directionless, for any way down hill will be the same, without the anticipation, without a goal.

The A levels has come and gone, for about a week or so now. Much akin to mountaineering, I find myself with not much a thing to do, besides wasting away the month or so I got left. Well in fact its not that bad. I can finally have my fill of fun, and fun I have been having. I could have more, but theres always restrictions, like the nagging light in the parents eyes for going out too much, even before they open their mouths. Then theres the cashflow problems as well, with so many plans yet to be accomplished.

So somedays, I just stay at home, and stone. And stone. Well maybe this upcoming bout of sickness can give me an extra reason to stay home tomorrow.

Actually I have no idea what I just wrote. I just wanted to update I guess. In summary,

The A levels are over.

Thats about it.

The A levels. Its almost over now, and what is over cannot be undone. One more paper to go.

I must admit that the process has been a great struggle, when the pressure gets tough, learning how to not snap is a tedious task. Life lessons. Galore. Coping with it. I am sure glad I can see the light of the end of the tunnel now.

But what lies ahead is even more uncertain, and I am even more unprepared.

There is no where else to fall when you reach the bottom, its now or never. But somethings holding me back...

I feel sick.

My nose is congested. My head hurts. My stomach is queasy.

I long for sleep. Not that I have not been sleeping. Just that it has been a long time that I have not set my alarm clock. Every time I go to bed, I have to set that alarm. How long has it been, since I could just sleep as much as I wanted?

Sleep has not been that peaceful either. Formulae, equations, questions and answers have become common in my dreams recently.

I am stressed am I?

15 days to go.