Booking in in 1 hour 40 minutes time. My longest book out has gone by in a flash of an eye and ahead lies apparent obstacles and decisions. It is sort of getting normal now. Feeling crappy before book in, wandering around NTUCs to see what can make life better, then booking in to look forward to the next book out. Welcome to my life.

Confinement period the second. I dont know how much I am going to miss the people this time. A level results, come soon please.

How would I forget, not that soon.

Oh and to lovebirds, happy valentines day in advance for the coming 14th. For the free spirited, happy friendship day. =X Hahas. Have fun.

Chinese New Year this year is no longer just the angpows, the dong dong dong qiang music, the red and gold colours, the bak kwa, pineapple tarts etc. Its not that festive actually anymore. Maybe because I havent heard enough dong dong dong qiang music while in camp. Though its lacking in the traditional aspect this year, its so much more in other aspects. Its my longest book out since I became a soldier like OMG right?

Hmms. Oh well. In my 1+ days as a civilian I already satisfied two of my craves. Bubble tea and roti prata. Coolness. And teh peng too. And if you imagined me crouching by the road side all by myself munching, no lor. I enjoyed all this in the company of good friends. All the more enjoyable. Starting to look like a wonderful book out.

Havent done visiting yet. I guess that be tomorrow I guess. Then on chu san will be fun with all the people again. Looking forward to that. And then back to camp I guess. The weeks ahead, 2 weeks in camp. Its daunting. Plus IPPT the actual, live grenade throw, and what else field camp can bring. But oh well, I am not going to think about that yet. I must have all the fun I can have this remaining days, so I wont have regrets and I can last through field camp without getting too emo or anything.

Theres also the A levels results somewhere. Yes, I fear the results, but heck, its a book out, nothing else matters. =S

Happy lunar new year people. 恭喜发财，万事如意，年年有余，红包多多，yada yada. Lol. Yes ang pows are important.

The irony of life. I was wanting to finally get to visit this holiday resort and cease the usage of my brain for a solid 2 years. Sure enough, I got it now, though it is not as brainless as I expected, but pretty brainless. Yet, all I want to do now is go somewhere else, anywhere, including school to use my brain again.

I must admit that the island is beautiful, almost too beautiful. Myriads of stars in the morning, calming waves lapping against the shore, aerial stunts by nature's flyers. Its too much of a holiday resort really. Only thing theres no holiday here.

The people here are nice, at least in my bunk section. Great for talk cock sessions. But thats about all positive here. Okay, the delightful ride on the tonner to range perhaps. The intrigue of trying my hand at new activities like shooting and stuff. Thats all.

Well, I guess I sorted out my thoughts. I am miserable that is definite, so why bother making it worse? At least this stay at holiday resort is teaching me loads more about family and friends. I used to think that I may not call home every night, used to think it is redundant, since I am stuck here anyway. But yet it has evolved into a responsibility now, to let my family know I am okay, though most of the time it is to provide me a pillar of strength.

Friends. I have got to know how much more they can be through my years of adolescence. They have turned into a reason now, a reason for me to fight all the shit I get, a reason for me to survive till bookout. A reason for me to pass IPPT this monday. I hope I can do it. But yes, I will definitely try to look them up each bookout, cause they are the reason I book out. It is the meet up every week that renews my fighting spirit. It is the little calls and messages that gets me through.

Oh well. 6 hours before I am back to being a soldier. I be strong again.

Will it really get better after 6 weeks?