Its the first day of the three days break in between papers. And I am bored already. Terribly. I did study okay? I studied measurements! Fine, I lost motivation to study lah. Contrary to what I believed, I need the pressure to study. Haha. I will study tonight.

So while I was bored, I browsed around some sites. Looked at some phones. Saw one not bad phone, Sony Ericsson w960, but its probably too early too look at phones. I need to hold on to my phones for longer. Anyway, I had an inspiration for a blog post.

Introducing to you, my history of phones!

First up is the Nokia 3310.

Its my very first phone that I got in secondary one. My first sign of growing up. Lol. I was suppose to get a 3rd hand 8210 actually but I didnt want a third hand phone. So I got this phone free with the plan. It came in boring black but hey that time phone covers were in. So I got like transparent cases and keypads. Just didn change the lights. It is a very fun phone. Had screen savers and stuff, though it was just a pixelised picture last time, but hey it was way cooler than the 8210, way bigger too.

So my Mum was worried that it was heavy, so in about a years time I changed to a new phone. Traded in the old one for $100. Good deal eh? Except now I am left with covers and keypads that I have no use for. Oh well. Moving on. I changed to the Nokia 6510.

It was a rather savvy phone. More grown up now. It was very small, the smallest I ever had. It was sort of the brother phone of the 8310. Same size. Except that the blue light was way cooler. Though it looked more business-sey. But hey, I did say more grown up did I? Haha. Mine was black. And it was the first nokia phone with the 7 battery bar. Savvy~ But I accidentally elbowed it anyway and the screen cracked. And the 6510 is one of the rare nokia phones that phone covers are hard to find for. So the fun was spoiled. =(

Anyway, colour phones soon entered the world. And I think I changed to one pretty fast too. Perhaps close to a year too? Changed to the slim and sexy Nokia 6100.

Yes colour was probably the only cool part about the phone. And the slimness. But no more fun games like snake 2 or space invaders unlike my 2 previous phones. Welcome to bounce. Lol. So it was here I learnt the cheat code for bounce. Cannot die! I wonder if I still remember. Anyone still has bounce on their phone? Haha.

But hey phones are starting to progress faster than expected. Cameras came out. And everyone was snapping. And my phone had no camera! And it became boring. Boring! And so it was soon to be replaced. I cant remember how long the 6100 stuck with me, but I hope it was longer than the previous one. Lol.

It was somewhere in sec 3 november that I got the Nokia 6230. Now that doesn make sense. How did I change 3 phones in less than 3 years. So I guess the 3310 was less than a year then, and the 6510 also shorter. Hmms.

This phone was my longest phone. It transitted me through secondary school to JC, through the long and adrous O levels, and yeah in short 2 years. Quite a nice phone. Games were worse again. Only had beach rally 2 that I liked. Notice the trend with nokia games. But hey camera and mp3 function. Woah. Although I had only a 32mb card, I was contented. Mine was silver by the way, and I really used it for so long the colour began to come off. Haha. But 2 years is a long time.

And so now I present my current masterpiece. The Ultra Edition 12.9 a.k.a Samsung D900C.

It is a very beautiful phone. Super slim slider. I decided on this phone because I realised looks probably lasted longer than functions. And I was tired of Nokia. So I got this phone, with looks, but of course with reasonable functions as well. Yes no 3G but who really uses 3G anyway. I have a 3mp camera and 1gb of memory. And it doesn make my pocket bulge. What else can I ask for?

Games. Haha. Samsung has a poor habit. They like to make money even after people buy the phone from them. So they invent the Samsung Fun Club. It just means that the games are not very accessible unless you pay for them. And you just get a few not so fun games. Okay free kick was fun but I maxxed the level long ago. And I guess there are some nice games too, just that other games seem more fun. Lol. Like bubble bobble and stuff on sony ericssons. Damm I used to have that on my 6230.

But hey, no violent plans to change phone yet. I plan to hold this phone for 3 years. I hope. Lol.

I noticed something. Even though my phones seem to be getting better, I seem to be using them less for proper functions. I used to sms alot in secondary school. But now that I got 1000 free sms, I dont really sms as much, except for those relays haha. I guess its just the people entering and exiting your life. Some people like to chat via sms. Some dont. Lol. Oh well.

And so I conclude my history of phones. =)

Just something that I have been wanting to say but I keep forgetting. Why do I seem to be the only one who blogs during exams? =S

I wanted to call this a pitstop. The resting point in a race, for refuel and change of tires perhaps. On second thoughts, I decided to change my mind. Pitstops are not much of a relaxing place anyway. The crew is always rushing through their work to send off their teams car faster by that split second. Nope, I wont do that.

Insead, I am going to take it slow this 3 days. 2 subjects, half eaten, half digested. There is no point rushing to swallow. I might just choke. I am going to relax, take my time to browse through the remaining two subjects. I deserve it.

We all do. Even though we could have not performed up to what we had expected in some of the previous papers, there is no point pressurising ourselves to do even better in the next paper to make up for it. It doesnt make sense. Why give ourselves extra pressure when we are already facing it so tremendously? The rubber band can go further with extra stretching but too much will make it snap.

We need the rest. For the past 4 days, we have come home every day only to hit the books again, squeezing bits of info in with what little hours we have. It has taken its toll has it? We are all tired. Why should we do that now when we have the luxury of time presently? I am sure some of you will agree with me that studying under time is not the best way of storing it anyway.

So this weekends, take a rest. Sleep in tomorrow. Then think about the books.

Then again its hot weather aint it? It just rained, but its hot again. The heat has given me a headache, though it could equally very well be maths to be fair. =x Come on rain more!!!

Rest well my friends, and then gear up for the last 2 days of battle!

Woohoo. Finally another do-able paper. No promises but it seems better than the other days. =)

Afternoon papers are good to some extent. Its more relaxed. Wake up later. More time to get in the mood. And hey yeah BK breakfast! But its only good for the day ah. Cause sadly we only have one afternoon paper. So it just means lesser time to revise for the next mornings paper.

And tomorrow is Maths paper 2. My chance to pull up the already screwed paper 1. But here I am online. Focus! Alright I will study after this post. But seriously I am only good at the first 2 parts of stats. I wonder how much of that they can really test. I guess I can chiong sampling and hypo but what the hell is correlation and regression? HELP!

Oh ya. The weather is really hot man. I was trying to sleep for a while then now to cure my headache and damn it was hot. Didn sleep much in the end but headache is gone. =)

Tomorrow is classroom. If it is going to be this hot, I might as well not go for paper. But hey classroom is better in a way. So if I give up on the paper, I can look around for more familiar faces in the same situation as I am. Hehe.

Crappers. Hit the books.

There seems to be a bad trend forming for the examinations. Something I dont really want to see. First day was neutral, second day was bad, third day is worse. See the trend already? Well its not that the papers are getting more difficult really. And thats where the sucky part is.

I figured that todays paper was pretty easy. It was just me and my stupidness not being able to do it. Really. Its kind of dumb but I forgot nitty gritty parts that I practiced before just this holidays. Oh well. Felt really terribly initially but exams dont really have a hold on me. Good thing I failed a maths in secondary 4. Gives me preparation. I could be the next guy crying in the toilet otherwise.

Time to move on, and learn from the experience. I guess I skipped alot yesterday because I thought I just practiced it not long ago. So today I read through everything. I hope it will get better, and I guess it will.

Physics really gives mixed feelings. I always seem to put in the most effort for it. Try to understand it better and practice. But it is also the most hard subject to excel in. I got a E last block test. Wonder how it will go.

Rawr. I am not going to be set back by all these lousy papers. Tomorrow WILL be better.

Today has not been good at all. Maybe sometimes you can tell. From the point you wake up, sometimes you just feel like crap. And thats probably how the day will end.

Lets talk about the paper first. I guess its mostly unanimous, at least among those I asked. It is a relatively difficult paper. I only completed one question quite completely, with only parts here and there done from other questions. And that one question already took me an hour. Time problems there. So I guess I have to rely on the other paper then. Sigh.

Revision for maths is not going very good. I am doing what I can but I guess somewhere inside I have sort of given up abit. Theres just too many screwed up parts in maths that I need to fix. Not enough time to fix it during the holidays. Plus a not very good teacher. I am trying. But theres this bad bad feeling inside of me. Something different from the other nights before papers. Sigh.

Sometimes there are things you can try very hard to ignore, but deep down you know it bugs you, and you cant deny it. Yet there is not much of a way you can really run away. What you dont want to see just happens everyday. And it disturbs you. It could be just you and it probably is, cause not many a soul would agree with you. Or are they just blind, having the wool pulled over their eyes, or they just dont care. Then again, why should I care? It sucks.having a crush.

Things can only get better, can they?

I think I am crazy but I actually sort of starting to enjoy the examination period. Cool aint it? Go to school for just 2 to 3 hours and you are free to go. Get home to have some sleep, try to study abit, and then the cycle resumes. Savvy. If you dont mind the examination stress that is.

Well I guess it wasn that bad today so extra yays for that. It seems as easy to pass as it is to fail. But its a good thing I guess. No bad feelings is a good thing. 50 50 is a good ratio.

The only funny thing was wearing the school uniform again. It has been on hanger for 1 month now. Feels funny. Its part of the back to school thrill aint it? Though it isnt that wholesome a back to school feel. Should be normal lessons, so more time to talk cock and get readjusted. I havent written for quite a while my pen feels scratchy.

Aww crappers. So its another paper tomorrow. I hope I will be as easygoing as today when I get back. =)

The monster in me reemerges. Is it really just me?

9 hours to go.

Its about time. No looking back now.

No time for regrets. No time to panic.

Just some words of encouragement. If you had studied and are feeling comfortable, that is good. If you are not completely done, I am with you. Believe in yourself, thats all you can do. And try to be comfortable.

We are definitely not stupid. We know we have it. So lets do our best.

Good luck is what we need. So I am wishing it to be with all of you, fellow victims of the education system. More luck to be with those guys and girls that I fought the books together with this holidays, and shared both laughter and torment with. My classmates from 06S202. And those guys who I shared a past with. Go for it alright?

CHIONG AH!

Yesterday was a blast. It was like a fantastic conclusion to the holidays. 06S202 BBQ!

Started off pretty early going direct to Hongzhis house. Met Kenneth on the bus there which was good so I wouldnt be entering alone. Was really pretty early ah. I think Hongzhi was still asleep when we first arrived. Terence and Jungang came along later. We ultimate alianced for a while before headed off for east coast park.

It seemed that the other group meeting at Tampines wasnt very successful. LY was taking his own bus and Kopi was sleeping at home? So it was just the 3 girls, Capt Ris, Bang and Chew Fang. We went blading, which was what I wanted to do since the first week of the holidays. So yeah, another thing ticked off the checklist. I dont know if it was the holidays but the blading shop beside BK seemed to have rose in price. So after some hunting, we managed to find a shop that charged more reasonably, though the blades are lousier I guess. Gang and Terence were biking. LY met us at Mac. He really has a poor sense of direction. Wonder how he ended up at the Red House restaurant earlier.

So it was 6 on blades and 2 on bikes. And we went on for about 3 to 4 hours. Super tiring. Sorry to captain for making her fall a few times lol. I think she too light ah, cannot stop her well. But well it was fun. But realy realy tiring. The last part I was too tired to even slow down properly. First time blade until cannot wait to take off.

So we strolled back to Hongzhis house after that. I think he is really a good host. He allowed us to bathe at his house and stuff so it was more refreshed after that. Stupid Kopi finally made his appearance. It seemed he was there alone at the house a for a while. Hahas. So after that it was abit more of PS3-ing, watching night at the museum and mahjonging.

BBQ after that. I think it was pretty successful though it wasnt full attendence. 5 did not turn up. But the food was just nice enough and it was pretty edible! Lol. Had lots of fun lah. Anyway it is already amazing that we could have a BBQ in these holidays while other classes would be mugging away.

More mahjong and games and exploring Hongzhis house. And then there was cake for June babies! This year sadly we were missing one. So just 3 of us. Ronald always seems to know how to zhao yeah? Last year never dio cream this year also never. = ="

And then it was time to leave ah. Around 11 plus. Anyway, like to thank Hongzhi and his family for their hospitatlity. His mum is like always worrying if we have enough food. Hahas. And yeah also to the class for making time to come down and making it a success. And to the usual crazier bunch of us, thanks for the fun during studying, hangouts and stuff like that. Love you guys. =)

No pictures yet. Class photographer havent blog. Lazy gurl! =x

This holidays has been rather fun looking back. I think I did alot of things I wanted to do. Like swim, blade and stuff like that. Maybe could have studied more but no time for regrets. Now then, time to chiong to the end right? Good luck everyone for the Mid Year Exams. Jiayou jiayou jiayou for these 2 weeks to come!

Hey! Today is another day to celebrate. I am eighteen years and six days old. Its bang bangs birthday! So here goes.

HAPPY 18th BIRTHDAY SHUTING!^!!

Now that you are eighteen, you can buy alcohol and you can smoke. But thats not very healthy isnt it? Never mind. You can watch MORE movies with LY. Yeah just the last age barrier to break. =)

Anyway, the above paragraph is mostly crap.

Hmms. Eighteen le cannot be so blur le. Though I doubt we will see a difference. Fancy not seeing a cake with a lighted candle right under your nose. Oh well. Thats what makes you special I guess.

So once again happy birthday to my fellow june baby.

Hmms. I think bowling really needs more recognition. Yesterday I was wearing 2006s black bowling tee and the security guard was scrutinising my shirt for a MJC sign before waving me on. LIKE HELLO! I DONT NEED THAT MAN! SLAP HIS FACE! Then again do I look like I can plant a bomb? MJC is a bad location even if what. What will killing muggers do. = ="

Looking forward to Friday pretty alot. 06S202 BBQ! And blading! Hope it doesnt rain. And more games on Hongzhis PS3. Super fun. Woohoo! What else can I look forward to?

One more day of mugging to go. =) & =(

Oh me oh my. First day of the week. First day of mugging of the week. And I think I am falling sick. Drats. And I was supposed to do some of the reading through at night, like chemistry or econs. Guess not now.

Probably going to sleep early and tomorrow will be a better day I hope.

Now is not the time. =(

Finally got my new lenses today. So finally there is no more patches on my glasses. It is not much of a problem actually but I guess its better gone than there. So clearer vision now. I think its kind of wierd how my eyes can be 100 degrees apart. I am sure i use both eyes to see most of the time. Lol. Oh well.

And yeah I sent my watch for repair too. Luckily the repair is FOC but I am not sure when I will be getting it back. What happened to it? Oh yeah. Sort of dropped it one too many times and the whole glass cracked. I guess its tampered glass so the pieces didn fall out. It is sort of like a windscreen spiderwebbing after something falls upon it. Not pretty at all. And that happened exactly three months since I got possesion of it. I must take better care yeah?

So thats two thing settled. Just my mp3 player to service left. I wonder when that will be? I am so short of time now. I guess the day I pick up my watch will be the day I do my zen then.

I suddenly got a new perspective. I think some things should be better left the way they are. Contentment I call it. If one does not expect more, one would be very much a happier person. For there would be no yearning and no disappointment. And it would be easier to sustain ones smile. So live for the moment. When its time to be happy, be happy. When its just zero, leave it and be optimistic. Let things take its natural flow. I guess thats the way things should be.

So I will be just hanging around then.

Till you are ready.

Its one more week to the end of the holidays. I am worried. Actually, I am just avoiding of the use of the word panic because everytime I see that word, it sends a tinge of adrenaline down my bloodstream. But yes, I am pretty much in a state of panic.

I am super messed up now. I cant even find my examination timetable to allow me to prioritise. My chemistry notes are in a mess. And that is the topic I hardly touched, except for organic. I cant really recall what other parts of chemistry there is either. Mole, redox, gases, bonding, organic, thermal and periodicity? I guess there must be more. Really, how the hell do you squeeze all this into 4 weeks?

Maths can be finished I guess, physics perhaps. I am going to rush through econs this weekend, somehow. Though I havent touched a page of it. What I really need now is that bloody timetable. And all the topics of all the subjects. At least I can get an idea of where I really stand then. But I just cant find anything. I need help I guess.

And its always when the troubles come in that all of them come together. I guess its time to let go. Really. But its not that easy again isnt it? It just doesnt seem to be headed anywhere. I am lost.

6 more full days of studying left. Shuting's birthday and class bbq. End of holidays. Save me.

Yesterday was my 18th birthday. And I had a super duper one. Happy lah. Thanks people.

So for the fun of it, I decided to list out the people who wished me in order of timing after 12am, 14th June. I know some of you wished me before 12am but yeah get in queue. Hahas. Here goes.

1)Liong
2)Terence Teo
3)Fred
4)LY
5)Vonn
6)XiaoVonn
7)Hong Zhi
8)Bang^2
9)Lixian
10)Jun Gang
11)Yong Huang
12)Faizal
13)Derrick
14)Janet
15)Ben Chow
16)Huiling
17)Mr Gohel
18)Nick
19)Edward

Is your name there? If what, what are you waiting for? Hahas. Not many I know but I happy can?

Okay so what did I do? Actually nothing much lah. Some chilling in the day at Kens place. Then we went for dinner at fish and co at glasshouse. Okay lah I sound suagu but hey its my first time there. Lol. I think its a pretty nice place. Good ambience, live band, and good food. It was a very nice dinner lah. Just good time with good friends. And yeah the fish and co birthday ritual. = ="

I think I will let the pictures do the talking instead.

And I was very touched that they had something prepared for me at home too.

Some of my presents.

Once again would like to thank Kenneth, Jungang, Terence, Fred, LY, Yonghuang, the 2 Yvonnes, Shuting and Huiling for sharing this day with me. And extra thanks to Kenneth for doing the invites. Love you guys =)

Once again happy birthday to me!! XD

ER HEM!

This is a special post for a very special person.


ME!!!

IM 18!!!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME!!!!!!!!

Tomorrow Today will be great. Looking forward to it =)

I dont know what got over you but I will forget about it and I hope you will too.

Okay this is not much a post. Just some random ramblings.

I got my purple moving rubber today. And I paid only $6.95. Its like sold at $8.80 at Watsons lah. Thanks to my sister for the tip off. So guys, the place is Venus beauty, basement of White Sands. It sounds like a girls shop but yeah they sell Gatsby too. Lol.

And I finally got my first birthday presents from my sister. Some accessories and stuff. But I really like it and appreciate the fact she bothered to find the random necklace I was talking about. The last Campus Superstar judge was wearing something similar on the first episode. Lol. Really sweet of her. Thanks.

And just out of curiosity, I found out that I was born on a Wednesday, 18 years minus one day back. I think I was talking about it with my family the other day. So yah. Lol.

Okay thats it I guess, nothing else to random about. Lol. And yeah LY should try to tune down the volume of Dragostea Din Tei in his mp3 player. =x

I visited the dentist today. It was probably my first time going by my own, but it was very much the same anyway. I only screwed up in giving the receptionist the appointment card. I just couldnt see where to put it. But whether its with the parents or by yourself is no different. The moment you lie upon that horrible chair, the world is shut off and you are by yourself again.

The experience doesn improve with age. It still remains the same. I feel like I am writing some composition I read back in primary school. Haha. But yeah here goes. You lie upon the hard chair lined up with gadgets that do not appear the least bit friendly. Then the dentist picks up one of the tools, the one with the terrible noise, and asks you to open your mouth. And she begins to do her work.

With every movement of her hands, you find yourself sinking deeper and deeper into the cold hard chair, no where to run, no where to hide. It was as she was attacking every vessel in your gums, the occupational sadistic nature in her erupting as she broke every artery and they began to spur out fresh red blood. And she kept going.

It wasnt so bad actually. I just felt like exagarrating. =x It was a mere 5 minutes. And the dentist was nice and smiley. Haha. Actually I am pretty lucky, I dont really care for my teeth but yeah I got a nice set. No fillings, no decays. Just weak gums. But yup. And my next appointment is set next year. That will be pretty long. Whoopee.

Before that, went with Kenneth LY and Fred to buy some stuff. LY was early today surprisingly while the rest were late. It is quite amazing who you can see in half and hour of hanging around Tampines interchange. How about 1/3 of the girls in your class? Okay lah its just two but yeah saw Bang and Capt Ris. Haha.

Oh and we saw Fantastic Four life in action. Its damm funny. There was only Mr Fantastic, Invisible Woman, Human Torch, Silver Surfer and Doctor Doom. The difference between their skills? None. They all just jump and throw punches and kicks. Oh wow. And a very funny remark by Kenneth : I can see Invisible Woman! And the lamest thing is how they defeat Dr Doom. Its like the kids shout something, then suddenly the four of them raise one hand in the air, and proceed to carry Doctor Doom back stage. Wow. Its fun to be a kid really. They kid you all the time. And we saw the Fantastic Four and friends later, in not so fantastic shape taking the escalator. I wonder if the kids will recognise them. Lol. =x

Went to play mahjong at Kennies house later. I heard my mum isnt too proud of me playing mahjong. But I seriously dont see the harm since no money involved? It is just like daidee or some other card game. I dont see the point. Shrugs.

Then it was dinner and we sat there pretty long talking about life before JC. Not bad, guys talk. It is really quite rare in JC that you get guys time, so yeah, appreciate it. =)

Countdown: 2 days XD

Half of the holidays have gone by now. And I am not half through my revision. It seems a pretty desperate case actually. Im making good progress on mathematics, but other than that, I am stuck on physics and chemistry has forever been organic. I dont know where econs comes in.

But yeah, more haste less speed. Shouldnt panic now. But well, time to plan something out soon. Like a more compromised revision plan? Oh well. I see about it.

Then again, this week seems pretty exciting. I wonder if I can concentrate. Hehes.

Anyway, just like to say

HAPPY BIRTHDAY NICK!!!

May all your wishes come true. And yeah be happy! =)

Hey somebody elses birthday is coming up. I wonder whose. =x

Slept real late today. Sort of sensed my brother coming home from camp and going to sleep, so I just felt like sleeping somemore. Had some wierd dreams that I dont really recall. But finally pulled myself out of bed around noon. Didn want to waste the whole day away.

To no avail. I ate. Then I hit the com. No mood to mug today. I guess the results of oversleeping already started to get to me. Headache and running nose. Craps.

Went out near evening to make new lenses for my spectactles. Finally no more scratched lenses, in one weeks time. Yay. And my degree was pretty the same. But my running nose had become so bad my eyes were watering. I was sure my eyesight would become worse from the red eyes but nope, no link I guess. Why does everyone seem to be trying contacts? Lol. My sis tried today. It seems quite alright for her. But we will see.

Went to eat Breeks for dinner. My first time there. Not bad at all. Maybe my sis is right, my parents are become more hip the eating places. But then again, it is probably the long queue at Swensens. Lol.

Mugging resumes tomorrow. I hope. My nose is running like shit now. I hope I will be okay tomorrow. If what I may just go there and disturb the rest. =x Make me well!

Today was a pretty retarded day. My right double eyelid decided to see some light and make and appearance, which irritated me the whole day, giving me headaches and what nots. So I only managed to study dynamics and do the MCQ questiosn related to that.

After that the folks went to my da yis place so I decided to go swim. But the headaches and stuff got worse so I had to rest a while. But I am glad I did swim, cause it made my eyelid retract back in. Finally. Lol. But I think I got abit burnt.

And thats how I got through my Saturday.

Anyway, I noticed I havent posted pictures in a very very very long time. So just for cheers.

random shot while walking to downtown east

LY and his birthday present ^^

shot along orhard road

shot outside national stadium after soccer finals

shots of the ferris wheel from the car today

Thats it. Mostly scenery. And random nothings. Enjoy.

Went for army NS medical checkup yesterday. I think I was pretty lucky to have 7 other classmates to go with me. The things to come were pretty expected, since I have long heard lots about it. But it wasn that bad. If you are not scared of needles and pricking. But the computer test was terrible lah. Terribly long and boring. Oh well. At least its over.

I dreamt of us last night.

Went to Katong with Kenneth, Jungang, LY and Yonghuang to meet the rest, Yvonne, Bang and Fred. We got lost along the way, taking a bus to Bukit Merah, which wasnt Redhill MRT at all. But in the end we took 16 from there and I think it was faster than the MRT. So yay. It worked out. Anyway, with girls there, what we do there was pretty expected. Moreover bowling wasnt open or something, or so I heard. So we ended up singing in a room for 2 hours lah. Oh ya, actually Terence came for a while. Then he left. I wonder where to =x. And the small Yvonne was there too but left for something.

I tell myself I no longer bother but it seems otherwise.

Went for dinner after that. The small Yvonne came back and Huiling and Lixian joined us as well. The initial plan for Sakura from weeks back was cancelled due to the steep pricing. So we ended up at Jack's Place. A bit cheaper eh. Okay lah, for noveltys sake. I realised I have never gone here before. Lol. Its actually more for couples that sort of thing, with the dim lighting and candles and stuff but oh well. Lol. Anyway got some families inside also, so ya. Quite okay.

Sometimes I think of being direct but I have my apprehensions.

I knew I should have went home after that, but went to pool for a while. And reached home late. Shouldnt go home late too often. Always make people wait up. Oh well. I will try.

Where do I go from here?

Its 5 days to a special day. I wonder if anyone will even celebrate it with me. =x

Today went pretty well. It was more fun than I expected. Went to swim with Terence, Jungang and LY. I swam the most I ever had in my whole life. It was only 22 laps but I think its not bad for the first time I even attempted to swim a lap in the competition size pool. Lol. But now I am super tired. Wonder what pains await me tomorrow. =x

After that, went to meet up with the rest to play pool. Was quite good at the starting. Then I slowly deflated like a balloon. Until I kept missing every shot. Lol. Too tired maybe.

Bus 15 is a stupid bus. Took super duper long. Made me come home late. And it didn even reach my side of Pasir Ris. = ="

Going to study in school tomorrow. Was quite fruitful yesterday. Hope that it be good again tomorrow. One day of fun. One day of work. Here we go.

Perhaps it was only a beautiful dream on my part, to be forgotten. Back to one.

Today has been quite interesting. Went to the American Club on invitation of my uncle. Somehow, Sundays have become maternal-side family gatherings. =x But today was much better than last week, despite me being sleepy and all from sleeping late last night. Was watching that Jack Neo show, san1 ge4 hao3 ren2. Super lame the ending, where people retardedly take out yellow ribbons and start shaking them, smiling cheesily alongside. Okay anyway back to today.

Began with brunch. The spread there was really good. Like got Chinese and Indian cuisine, and the western breakfast stuff, the Italian stuff like pasta and pizza, and lots and lots of desert. Its really so much that for once I didn try everything at a buffet. Lol. Super duper full. Cheesecake there was good. =)

After that, went down to the bowling alley for games. 8 lanes, reminds me of CBC. =x But no super oily lanes here, was pretty cocked up the oiling. Damm lousy. Only had one decent game. But yeah its a nice place to bowl. Private. Except for the birthday party for that kiddo that was happening today. =x Hmms, I dont know if I can bowl long term anymore. It seems my forth finger always swell every time after bowling. Then quite pain. Maybe I should relax more. But its so not me. Oh well.

So now I am home. Maybe the folks will be bringing Lele to the park later. Can go blade a while maybe. Hehes.

Clubs seem quite fun. As in not Zouk and MOS lah, the club clubs, whatever I am trying to say. Like quite prestigious and you feel quite pampered and respected. Lol. But then again, theres quite a bit of socialising going on there, not exactly my favourite. But hey, maybe I can consider working hard to get a membership one day. Lol. Whatever.

I hate it when you have something to settle but you can only settle it after a certain time period. Most of the times I rather it over and done with. But in some cases it cant be helped. The mid-year examinations fall comfortably in this category. You cant rush it to come, yet it is there, constantly bugging you, and reminding you its there.

Shout the word holiday and echoes that sound abrubtly different return. Echoes that sound like the phrase study-break. The June holiday is destroyed due to this unwanted term attached along to it. No matter what you plan to do, there is always the question in your mind. Should you rather be studying?

And it takes the fun out of everything. Everytime you have fun, you return home feeling guilty that you might have been studying instead. Yet when you try to study alone at home, you find yourself unable to focus much, and the question changes. What if you had used that time to play instead? Indeed the opportunity cost of every activity becomes more prominent now, the constraint of time making us sensitive to it.

Theres just so much you want to do on one hand, all the fun stuff. Yet on the other, your sense of responsibility bugs you, the responsibility of being a student. How is it possible to squeeze all this into the period of a month? And on top of that, you are unable to control unexpected circumstances. That makes it just more difficult to manage your time. Anyone else with time issues? Hmmm.

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The holidays is a good time to catch up with friends from outside of school. Your secondary school friends, the good old friends. You finally find time to break out of the tiring cycle of schoolwork when you could only squeeze time to hang out with those friends from class. I guess that is one good thing about the holidays. Are we going to meet up soon? Faizal, Denan, Phira and Edward. The good old timers.

But now that you are free to meet up with the external people, do you find yourself drifting away from those guys at class instead? Going out just seems so difficult now. Everything is just so official. Advanced booking needed. No more impromptu stuff. It really tests your sense of initiative. And I dont have much of that. That may explain why I am home so often. =x In addition to that, there is difficulty in asking people out sometimes. I somehow have the feeling that I will be always second in line, especially to those people with commitments to other people. I somehow feel that everyone just has their plans already. And it really does seem a long time since we last met up, although it has just been 4 days.

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Oh well. I have released some of the pent up emotions I have inside. So now its time to be optimistic again. Perhaps the time issues and the meeting up with people issue will be settled when I finally get some people to group study. That will take my mind off stuff I guess.

On a lighter note, has anyone noticed? Its 12 days to a very special day! XD

Was that just a dream to fade away?

I thought I was going to stay home today. There was no people, all missing in action or busy. There was the afternoon rain, throwing a wet blanket upon my plans. But in the end the sun shone, and I went bowling. But it was just me and Shawn.

Not bad today I guess. I hit 2 190 games so I am pretty happy, though I could have been more consistent. =S Shawn is on spin mode now. Still getting back the hang of it I guess. But already not bad. Hahas. His new ball looks nicer hooking though. =x Okay la not bad. At least took away the boredom of the day.

Oh yeah. Met Daryl there. And so he joined us to play 2 games. Hahas. Small world. Or is it just that Kovan is a good place to meet bowlers? Met Jonathan there the last time I went too. =x

I should begin studying shouldn I? Already 5 days of the holidays down the drain. And I only redone my partial fractions tutorial today. Maybe I should skip some of the maths topics, cause I dont see much point in doing some chapters. Maybe jump on to something more exciting like AP and GP. Interesting cause I dont know anything much about it. Or maybe I should do chem. Hmms. I should just get started.

Maybe I can get people out in school next week to mug hardcore. That may work. Hmms.

Yesterday was one retarded day. Woke up to find the internet connections in my house problematic. Plus I got some running nose due to sleeping too long in aircon. This adds up to one bad day. Really nothing to do at home without internet and the running nose doesn exactly improve things eh?

In the end I decided to go my aunts place to swim with my sister. Thought maybe can help improve the breathing too. Well it did lah. I was feeling much better in the pool. Swam lots. Okay lah. Seems like more than the other day. And so I happy happy headed off.

But shucks. About half an hour later, the whole syndrome returned ah. And it worsened. Running nose,watering eyes, yada yada. And internet was only returned to one computer. So I didn bother to scramble with the siblings. But I couldnt really sleep either. Evantually I did, wrapping up my bad day.

Well it seems everything about the internet is settled now. And I wake up feeling better and healthier, but pain from swimming. Lol. Abit. Had a random dream about how the new CCA excos were very close to each other, abit like house comm. Having their own big room on the second floor of the sports block. And yeah, bowling even had their own sitting area somewhere else, just for them. Thats when I realised it was a dream. Lol. But oh well, I guess that was what I truly wanted, more recognition for us bowlers. But it wont happen this year I guess.

Keep dreaming.