Crossroads

It is a point of time, where it is the end of many things. The end of JC, the end of A level result anxiety (though I didnt really get the jitters), end of stays at holiday resort island (thank goodness), and the end of some knitty knattys here and there. This is so cliche but I will still say it, when one door closes, another will open, somewhere, somehow. And thus ahead of me lies paths, some have already been decided, while others remain unexplored, and lies in question. The resounding query in my head, which way should I go?

The short run looks decided. I made my decisions, played my part, and now the result lies in the hands of the higher ups, people whom do not know me, neither do I know. Just armed with a piece of paper which lists the ups and downs of my stay at holiday resort. And they are going to decide my future for another 1 year and 7 months. Ironical. But that is beyond my concern now.

What is more impending is the long term plan. What can decide my future career, my future life. In front of me currently lies two apparent paths, one with a sign that reads Mechanical Engineering, the other reads Business. The former path seems more appealing, more of interest, yet it is narrow at the end, not much space to move about at all. The latter is difficult to pass at the start, yet it branches out to so much more at the end. Pros and cons galore. Who can make this decision but me? The stone in the heart.

Theres the issue about scholarships too. What is suitable, what is not. And the deadline is even nearer if I am planning to get a good one. Pressure, stress, everything. And I am still playing around, just to make the best of my block leave. Bleahs.

It will work out somehow right? It always has. Naive, but thats what I am going to be for a while.

Things have settled down more or less, its getting better I guess. I should learn to be satisfied.Though a foolish warrior still fights on, silently.