National day is over. Happy birthday Singapore. Had a bit of fun too. And now its back to the solemm school days after this again. Suddenly, I feel scared all over again. It seems too easy to fail the A levels actually. Far too easy to crap my future. Too easy.

I know how grave this all is, but I just dont really know how to rectify the situation either. Lets see, my maths is still quite terrible, very actually. My chemistry is more or less back on track. My physics is okay. Economics, I dont know really. Its quite a scary situation.

I find that I am wasting time. I havent really gotten into revision. School just doesnt allow me to do so. Its just overloading me. I can only revise on stuff that is revised in school. I am worried. What about the rest? The teachers are so afraid they dont have the time to finish their revision lectures. Then what about the rest? Are the revision lectures really enough to save my life? I highly doubt so.

What can I do I keep asking myself? I am trying to finish up all the revision stuff that is thrown at me. Its pretty a dilemma actually. If I try to revise myself, I may not do what is given to me. If I do what the teachers give, the teachers might think I am working hard but is it really a better route?

I guess I need to be more serious about this. I need to push myself really hard. Though I cant really see myself that way. Doing the Physics TYS twice. Studying during every break. Revising three times a day. Its just crazy, I dont see myself that way. Is it really worth it? I dont know.

I guess all I can do is work hard and see what happens. Be positive. And the best may come. No point brooding over it.

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