Today was meet the folks day. What can I say? I guess I feel some resentment. Lies. Lies galore. The teacher doesn seem to be trying to help me in any way. Instead, it seems more like kicking me while I am down, or stoning the person in the well. What kind of teacher will do that?

What was she trying to do? Sow discord between parent and child? Why on earth will she pick out the worse case scenarios to make you look worse then you ever are? Show how I dropped from a C in econs for block tests to a U now. Just makes me wonder why the hell did I even get that C before. And yes show how I plunged from C to S for chemistry too, coupled with the additional point that mid years are supposed to be easier than block tests. What a lie! What a freaking lie! Even teachers from the physics department knows that it was a killer paper. And theres can be the testimonials of the failures for chem to support my point. Imagine getting a U and still being in the top 250 in level for chemistry. Means some hundreds of students are getting worse Us. Easier. My foot.

There wasnt a good thing to say about me. Even my GP grades were not satisfactory for her. Fortunately my dad was very supportive of me. And so she moved on to how I could be overconfident. Great.

She said I was distracted in class and wasn focussing. Was it her own opinion? Though she said my tutors noticed. Shrugs. I admit I dont concentrate in her class. How many times do I need to learn to skim and scan anyway. She told me not to consult her with people of lower language standard than me. Cause she will teach at their level and I wont get much benefit. I wonder what standard does she teach at class then. Then again, am I really being distracted this year?

Anyway, I was just glad it was over. Without any benefits at all.

But I really wonder, was that necessary? To make me look bad? To demoralise me? The grades have already startled me. Is there a need to scare me more? What if I cant take it and decide to give up instead? Like its any of her business anyway. Perhaps she was just plain biased? People who do worse than me seem to have better remarks on their report slip.

One positive effect though. I am never going to let her see my parents again. So I guess I have to work?

Though I am afraid I am giving myself too much pressure. I get really frustrated and lost when I get stuck on some question now. I question my own intelligence. I wonder if I am the only one. I wonder how much more stress I can really take. What if I break like a stick? No amount of glue will make me the same again.

Got to keep going and think less for now. Gambatte!

And to those people who were similarly demoralised by her, ignore and move on.