My mid year results from last year.

H1 General Paper D
H2 Physics E
H2 Chemistry C
H2 Maths E
H1 Economics U

Not very fantastic but hey I passed all my H2s.

My promos results from last year.

H1 General Paper A
H2 Physics C
H2 Chemistry C
H2 Mathematics C
H1 Economics S

An improvement. GP is like wow. And I got straight Cs now for H2s now. And finally subpassed my econs.

My block tests results.

H1 General Paper E
H2 Physics E
H2 Chemistry C
H2 Mathematics U
H1 Economics C

GP was disappointing. And the rest began to look a teeny weeny bit like 2006 Mid Year results. Even worse. Passed econs though I think, I didn really blog explicitly on this.

Alright time to quit beating about the bush. Why the sudden want to dig up old records? Cause I guess I am going to break all the records soon. Not in a good way definitely.

First looks.

H1 General Paper ?
H2 Physics ?
H2 Chemistry S or U
H2 Mathematics ?
H1 Economics U

I guess all will be known tomorrow. But things are definitely not looking good. My straight track record of Cs for Chemistry is crushed. And econs is knocked out again, just when things were starting to improve during block tests. From the look on Mr Gohels face, I got a feeling that I didn do too well either, probably a U. And maths, did I say I gave up on it even before the exams? Terrible. It looks like I may not get a single H2 pass. And for GP, its super unpredictable, paper 2 was difficult.

I really dont understand why this is happening to me. I know I am not your hardcore mugger but I could at least pass? It is not like I didn study at all. I did. I even practiced, not just flip through notes. I could even say that it is probably one of the times I studied harder. And here I am breaking all records. It aint fair at all.

Am I really expected to give up everything to a life of books and tutorials? Is doing TYS twice to practice for one exam the only way that can really work? What happened to brains? I know I am not stupid, neither are some of the friends around me. But why is this happening to us? I really cant. I cant be a hardcore mugger. I cant. I cant give up my life. I cant just eat books daily with worksheets as drinks. I need to breathe. Its like asking me to cut of a limb. What can I do realy?

The worst possible thing that could happen to me will be a U for physics. It will really crush me I guess. For that was what I really worked hard for. I really dont know what to expect. But it seems quite apparent.

It is like falling through air after falling off a building. The end is almost certain, yet here I am in denial. I didnt jump off myself. I was trying to build a bridge to the higher building opposite the road, but my construction failed me, and I am falling.

Somebody catch me.