Rainy day. Beautiful. Gentle raindrops falling from the sky, washing away the mess in our lives. Makes me drowsy too. Would be greater if it was just another day in my life, where I have all the time to waste, all the time to while away, listening to the rhythm of the falling rain. Not today.

Thats the problem with the life here. It is far too fast paced. How often do we really get to appreciate what is around us? The wonders of nature. A simple question can prove my point, how often do we really notice what the celling of a room looks like? Not very often in my case. And since the dogs of exam stress had been set upon me, there is even less space to slow down.

I think I am really working harder, though it is probably not enough still. I still find myself not being able to sustain for long at home. I somehow like to get over any obstacle I hit as soon as possible. Otherwise, I will get distracted, frustrated and what not. So I will hit the com to find my answer, and waste more time there. Especially since people seem to not have the same problem as me. They seem online less often now. Less people to ask questions. More time wasted.

I guess I really need group study. Not group study perhaps. Maybe just a study partner, or 3 people or 4. I guess the June holiday group was far too big. It would be nice to have someone to do homework and revise with during weekends too. But its abit early now. Continue struggling by myself.

Okay I guess I went off path. This was supposed to be a nice post. No complains and no nonsense. I guess I cant help it. My life is crapped up now.

But today was a beautiful day anyway. I love rain. And it stopped to give me time to swim in the morning too. How perfect. I wish it would rain tomorrow too, and the day after, and the day after the day after.....

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I changed my blog song again. Colourblind. Old song. Nice lyrics. But a tinge too happy I realised. Too many colours. There seems to be only black and white in my world, and grey. Any suggestions for the next song? I am open to ideas.