Okay its all over. Its not AUSSU or USBUS. Its CUSUS. I guess I overrated myself. Screwed my paper 1. I am facing a writing crisis I guess. Nothing is working well. No one appreciates my writing anymore. And thats the second major paper 1 in a row that I didn do well in.

It is quite depressing. Only passing 1 H1 is not fun at all. And I am back to square one I guess. Without any comfortable subject, struggling. Its not that I am not trying. But it just is not as easy said then done.

I guess there is no point harping on the whole matter I guess. Its time to move on and try harder. But I am really not sure where to go from here. I am trying to do my tutorials and school revision stuff very regularly. Though tutorials are still pretty undoable, like group VII, but I do try harder. I am considering revising on myself now. Though it seems like pretty no where now.

But I dont know what really I should start with. Practicing tutorials for maths didn work. Practicing TYS for physics didn work. So what? I guess tutorials still. Now I need to find the motivation to start. And then keep it in drive.

I really do wonder sometimes, if what Mr Gohel said was true. That our studying in school wasnt paying off at all. I wonder. I really do. If it was just the paper standard or that it was purposeless. I know I probably do more in school than at home, especially during the holidays, but then again quality is questioned. But if I were to study at home, I guess the optimal period is from 11pm-3am. Not a great time.

Oh well. I guess I will give it more than. I will not give up my life but I guess I have to strike a better balance.

And to all those people who didnt well as well, be strong, and try again.

Funny, shuting and yvonne low though I carved my name into my hand or something. I dont think I am that emo and crazy to try something like that yet. Black pen and red highlighter. Quite a good effect I realised. Just give it some time to wear off.