Another wasted day. I hate to waste days. As in I didn achieve what I set out to do. Today what I wanted to do was to be a good boy and study for chemistry test. But ended up succumbing to sleep after one question of stretch and excel. Damm running nose. And what was supposed to be from 1.40 to 3pm ended up till 6pm. Fantastic.

Actually I dont really know whats wrong with me these days. Always suffering from this or that. I dont know if its flu or just sinus. Whatever it is, it is sure getting on my nerves. Headaches, tired eyes, feeling feverish (but is not fever). I want to be well again. I want to live a happy fulfilling life, not one about lying in bed and feeling pathetic. Grrr.

Then again, I want to question myself, why am I getting so worked up about this small chemistry test? I used to study on the day before, as in read through notes, and go for the test. But recently, I am expecting so much more. Im stretching and exceling. What the hell. Perhaps its due to peer pressure. Its scary to see people mugging their pants off and getting A for every subject. Or perhaps it is to get the teachers off my back. I do not really have the time to do tutorials and assignments now. So a good grade for the test will really do me good. If I fail this, and continue not doing my tutorials, it is a one way ticket isnt it?

Life is so meaningless now. Im still drifting.