It was a good dillema to begin with. While I managed to reap the advantages of choosing this path, I incurred the full wrath of it.

I guess I was selfish in a way, terribly. It was a fight between heart and mind. With principles holding the reins of the mind and the heart fighting its own war. But it seemed the heart won, though it wasn easy. There were points of contemplation. Blading vs IT fair. If they didn go blading, I would have probably chose the other path. But the fact stays that I chose the new guys over you.

It is almost indefinite that something like that would occur. Indefinite that friendship weakens with seperation, much in contrary to what I believed previously, but the truth is there to behold. And I had tried to sulvage it all. Why else would you think I would suddenly want to meet up with you all? Because I am lonely? Because I have no friends? I had merely wanted to return you all back to the place you guys used to hold in my heart.

But it seemed the virus had attacked just before the vaccination was about to be administered. You have the right to be angry. You have the right to feel cheated. But please, dont lose faith. I really dont know what I can do or say now. Just want to let you know, Im sorry.

If only things were simpler.