Another day at home. Another day of failure at revision. It is obvious. I am online at this time of the afternoon. I do have a problem do I? I cant seem to study by myself for long before a stomach full of frustration stops me in my tracks. The lack of motivation and discipline at work. 2 days to the block tests.

The block test is the stupidest creation ever. It craps my holidays. My long needed one week of holiday finally comes and it turns it to crap. One week of crappy study break. Dammit. It is a official school term break by MOE not a dumb study break stipulated by schools. It is a way to make us study the shit out of our heads. It would have been better if we had the block test before the holidays I guess, like some fortunate schools. Sure you dont get the time to mug but doesn that lower the expectations of the teachers? And you get to enjoy this week. For me, they give you one week that is barely sufficient and you are expected to do better. Is it fair? Not at all.

I have given up quite abit on Maths I guess. I just dont dig it anymore. Failing the new topics. Forgot the old topics. Its a one way ticket to the F. Econs is half dead. But might be possible to work something out. Chemistry is the usual. Should pass but doing well is another thing. Physics, I guess I been working on it the most this holiday. Still halfway there. I hope something comes out of my little work.

I cant wait for the block tests to be over. Theres no holiday, but studying is finally over. There is so much I want to do. Though it will hardly come true. I want to watch TMNT and Mr Beans Holiday. I want to play pool. I want to... Theres just so many more possiblities after that I guess. Now it just seems bleak and hopeless. With nothing but mountains of notes to ply through and seas of practice to complete.

I need a miracle.