The last one day was spent catching up with sec school friends. It is amazing how some of my friends do it but they manage to balance their new friends with the sec school kaki pretty well. Not in my case. 4 months. Thats how long I have not seen the people, and the closer friends at this case. And for the guys in my school, its even a worse case somehow, I have yet to talk to them properly even after today, cause they did a no show. Sadded.

So I was estastic at the thought at meeting all of them finally. So much that I dragged myself away from the company of my class to meet them, went out till late even though I wasn feeling so well. Pulled myself out of bed today even though I was suffering from the hangover of fatigue.

I remember the old times. The boys. F-qube. The bigger circle. I admit that the class was never really bonded so I wasn really enthusiastic in meeting all of them. Just wanted to meet this handful of people. But I still didn get to meet all of them. It is reasonable I guess, its a pass. The two others I wanted to meet are in my school, so probably chances are that I can meet up with them easier? Probably, but in truth probably no. The extra effort. I need to put it in somewhere.

And so I met the 2 other boys yesterday. Some things were the same. The classic handshake. The friendship. The warmth. But yet, things were not the same. Somehow, there was distance, the unfamiliarity. There was even some discomfort to an extent. Different environents. I guess poly really breaks you into reality much better than JC. There were different mindsets, different exposure, different attitudes. It seemed at times like the bad company often depicted in primary school compositions.

It is a dillema. Deep inside, I still very much want to meet and go out with them, and do stuff. It is something I have not indulged in for a long time. Guys day out. That never happens in JC. Somehow we are just too busy we forgot whats it like to just chill out. Just sit and talk. We need a good purpose to get people out. It was wonderful to relive that. But then again, the different perspectives on what to and not to do bugs me when I am with them. I feel pressure, not at all like the old times, when all of us were more similar.

But I have decided. They are still my friends, my very good friends. I still want to meet them more than anything. Perhaps drag the JC people along as well to neutralise stuff.

Anyway, just to apologise to the 4V-ians for the attitude I gave today. Just was pissed at the outcome. Especially you, yeah we probably will meet on that Friday.