I am complaining again. I never fail to do so I realise but theres nothing much to rejoyce about in this perpetual world of grey. There are certainly times of black where things are at its worse and times of white where things look up, but I havent really seen the rainbow for a long time now. Welcome to life in JC.

Life is like an hourglass glued to the table. The sand just keeps falling. You can try to stop it but the sand just keeps falling. And you realised you would be better off spending that time on something else. Thats life. And so here I am, short of time as usual. It gets worse when you find your weekends eventful. It just means a tough weak ahead. The strategies of deception and concealing from the teachers have to be employed twice as many times.

Actually, I am not really against doing homework or studying. I am a student. It is my responsiblity. And I do feel satisfaction when I finally get something done. But then again, it is an evil cycle. If I decide to chiong my tutorials in advance, I slack off in class because it is all done and I know how to do it. And in the end, I sort of forget because it was done too long ago. But if I dont do homework, I copy loads in class. Sure my mind is at least on the topic now but how much will I absorb?

And once again, it is not usually because I dont want to do homework. It is often because I cant. I am the kind who stops once I get stuck at one question. I totally lose the momentum to continue. I really cant afford to encounter a hard question. That is why I like doing homework together with others. But in this tight schedule in JC, when do we really have the time to do so? There is also social stigma involved in mugging in public. The mugger image is not a preferred thing. There is also fatigue to deal with, 5 nights a week. Which is why the weekends were there in the first place.

I dont know what the future would be like. CCA is going to step up to three times a week and school work will probably increase too. And I am not even enjoying myself much now. Life is so meaningless. How will it be like then?

Give me a reason to smile.