The two lecture tests of the week are finally over. I know I screwed them. But I know its minor, thats why I am not regretting much. But it just says alot about my attitude towards school. I am not taking it very much seriously. I know.

Life is like this for me now. Everyday, after school, I come home. There is homework to be done but TV comes first, then dinner. After that, I try to do homework for an hour, but I am always pretty tired. Then at about 9, I turn on the computer and stay there till bedtime. Not very much I can accomplish then. Even on the days that I have tests, I only put in an extra half hour? Just browsing through. It doesn work.

I guess I never was a very self motivated learner. I need people to motivate me. In primary school, there was my mother to go through those assessment books with me. Those were days in the torture chamber but I guess it did its job. But I also remembered hiding my gameboy in between my pages of text when I was left on my own. In secondary school, my mother released her grip. I was left to struggle, but I soon found solace in friends. So before the O levels, I was out almost everyday studying with my friends. It wasn very much, but I knew it would be more than what I could do by myself at home.

Now I am in JC. Things are very much the same I guess. I find doing work easy when I am with my friends. At home, I just stone and feel lazy. So thats how life is now. But I guess I still can survive. Dont do work during the weekdays, chiong in the weekends. Its by myself but there is more time. But not all weekends are going to be free. The next two Saturdays to come are already eventful.

So what am I to do now? Studying is a students only responsibility. I understand that and find it very true. But then again, easier said than done. I guess I need to reshuffle my mentality, reset my priorities. It may be too early now, but am I going to wait till its too late?

The A levels. Looming in the distance but its aura already exerts an effect on us students. Minimal now, but I guess its scary when you dont know your work. Will there be enough time to revisit all this in time to come? Better do it now right? Sure. I will try. People around me, ask me to do homework the next time you see me lepaking around.

Two weeks to go. Any friends want to celebrate friendship day with me?