Do I sound like I am going through an emotional roller coaster these days? I hope not. I finally thought it out today. I guess time sorts things right? Yeah. So I decided, this itch that I have, I am not going to scratch it. I will try alternatives instead, hit it, numb it, move it, whatever, however. Its just wrong to scratch it, you not only hurt yourself, but may accidentally cause trauma to others too, ugly scratch marks may scare? Lol.

On another line, the rosy picture I painted about schoolwork yesterday is totally crap I realised. I am cracking under the pressure! Its like super intensive now, with tutorials almost every alternate day. In other words, no more hopes of chionging during the weekend and pray it lasts the whole week. Nope. And the weekends are not that free now too, at least the upcoming one. And seriously, I seem to know nuts about my work. Perhaps when the ones that were taught during the first week and the self study stuff is over, I might catch up? Hope so. But yeah, GP, Chem, Maths and Econs is enough to kill. Thats far lesser than what I had last year. But what the hell, Im suffering more. At least physics is good for now, Mr Gohel is nice to revise Superposition. =)

The monotony of school. I guess its a cause. Perhaps its this perpetual cycle that makes me come up of wierd emotions and thoughts. Somehow, we might just want something different, or it may be this garguntuan amount of time that we have while stoning during lectures that make us come up with funny thoughs. But its nice to have this feelings some times. It makes listening to songs so much more interesting. I just listened to tonnes of Westlife today while stoning at the study bench. I think its one of lifes greatest things, just enjoying music, with the right ambience and mood.

For now, its time to get on with life. Im glad I feel free now. But not free from the clutches of teachers and commitments. I really need help. Someone volunteer to teach me Mclaurins? Is that how it is spelt? And I need more time. I want to use this bloody computer, but I am sacrificing doing my intergration tutorial. Thats how sad life is now. Come on come on. Move on from here now.