Fuck it man. Just fuck it. Im freaking stressed now. All because of freaking chemistry. It was shit. Just shit. I cannot comprehend why this is happening. I studied, I did. I revised all the bloody theory. But in the end, the bloody calculations just murdered me. Stupid chem equilibrium and ionic shit. I only could calculate initial pH if that is how bad the shit is.

And what am I supposed to do now? Of course move on and work on the bloody other two papers. Im trying bloody hard but I am just feeling the pressure more than before. What makes me think I can do maths and physics when I just screwed my best science? It is such a joke. Why? Why must it happen today? If I screwed a paper tomorrow, I would just fucking hell forget about it and get on with my play. But today, I get the bloody stress to do better in the other two shitty papers.

I slept and dreamt of chemistry. I woke up tried to study but I get freaking stressed. Its like I am rushing through, just like how I did that dumb paper. I cannot pace myself. I know I have hours to go. But I just feel that I have to do so much. So much. I got double Es for mid years in maths and physics. I cant afford to do badly for promos. I keep rushing through every set of lecture notes, but I know that is not going to be beneficial.

HELP ME! I dont want to get retained. I feel like dying. Feel like breaking down, throw in the towel. But no there is no way that the teachers will understand. They will just smile and present you with the nightmare of your day. Double trouble tomorrow. I wished I can do my paper in the classroom. Im getting phobias about the hall. I am disorientated. So close to the finish, yet im suffering more than every. An irony in every sense. Can somebody save me?

But all I hear is void from every corner. There is nobody around. This is my battle. Mind over matter. Focus alvin. I could convince myself of how tomorrow could be better earlier. I can do it again. And I can succeed. I can work hard and it will pay off. Yes. Back to studying.

Far Away, by Nickelback

This time, This place
Misused, Mistakes
Too long, Too late
Who was I to make you wait
Just one chance
Just one breath
Just in case theres just one left
Cause you know,
you know, you know

That I love you
I have loved you all along
And I miss you
Been far away for far too long
I keep dreaming you ll be with me
and you ll never go
Stop breathing if
I dont see you anymore

On my knees, I ll ask
Last chance for one last dance
Cause with you, I d withstand
All of hell to hold your hand
I d give it all
I d give for us
Give anything but I wont give up
Cause you know,
you know, you know

That I love you
I have loved you all along
And I miss you
Been far away for far too long
I keep dreaming you ll be with me
and you ll never go
Stop breathing if
I dont see you anymore

So far away
Been far away for far too long
So far away
Been far away for far too long
But you know, you know, you know

I wanted
I wanted you to stay
Cause I needed
I need to hear you say
That I love you
I have loved you all along
And I forgive you
For being away for far too long
So keep breathing
Cause Im not leaving
Hold on to me and
never let me go

EH! NO LINK BUT NEVER MIND! AHAHAHAHA! IM OKAY!