Im in a delightful mood. The most probable reason is that im only one day away from the one week study break. On top of that, tomorrow promises to be relaxed. GP in the morning, followed by maths lecture. Next would be PE. Sure, it is a put off to have PE lecture on the last day of school before the promotionals. But then again, the gym plans during recess takes the dissatisfaction away. Hope, its going to be fun and fruitful. After which there is physics lecture and finished off by chinese. Well almost. There is a physics time trial after school. Another put off. But well, I am not going to stress it and mug for that. Just gonna go there and try my luck. It worked well for the chemistry time trial yesterday. And then it would be the long-awaited study break.

It is funny. I am hardly prepared for the promos but yet im glad its closer? Well actually its because of the study break. I definitely cannot study during regular school. Although its supposed to be revision, there is still tons to do, getting you too exhausted to attempt any self-study. So I am indeed looking forward to the study break. I forsee a fruitful week, more fruitful then the wasting of time in lectures and tutorials. Why cant the teachers understand that we need more self revision more than anything? Well, at least that for my case.

I hope i will have the determination and discipline through out next week. I really have to optimise my time. Tons of practice is my plan, with memorising notes as a supplement. I worry I cannot focus but the one week is all i have. Lets hope it goes well.

So i am delighted because i can finally do what i feel is fulfilling and useful. Something that makes me feel that i have really learned and improved at the end of the day. Cool?

Well perhaps my day is not that good after all. I got the news today. Faizal is headed to poly next year. Im not upset. I long accustomed myself to the thought that we all have to seperate one day. Its the friendship that matters. The friendship that makes you say hi even if you had not seen a friend for 30 years. Friendship is not being together. If one forces to be together for the sake of friendship, it would destroy the lives of one party or both. That would defeat the purpose of friendship. We walk the journey of life on our own. We could be walking together in a row for a moment but in the next, the friend next to you may have a life path in a different direction. It would make no sense to force yourself to walk his path or force him to walk your path. The answer is to have faith. Have faith that one day, along this intertwined paths of lives, the paths of two friends may meet again, and you can walk together for that another moment. Live for the moment then.

Well what am I saying? The case is not as bad actually. Its not like Faizal is moving to pluto, leaving the realm of planets to the not so planety world. I still can meet him up whenever we have free time. Sure enough this would be minimal, but it is better than the life path scenario, where you enter a forest and cannot see your friends walking a path beyond the trees. Have faith, have faith that we will find time to meet. So my only hope, meet up more, and may the friendship never die.

Faizal is probably striving for his real interest in life. Getting the fulfilment in his life. A life of fulfilment is more important than a life of wealth and power. I hope I too can see the light to what i really want to do in life. How i really want to make a difference. But currently I cant, precisely why im in this pitstop called jc.

I should be happy for Faizal. Which was why i wasn upset. But I still want to talk to him. Sigh. Later perhaps.

Back to the studies. I think im still rather optimistic that i will be able to do adequate revision to get promoted. And I hope that my whole class will make it. 06S202 jia you!

buh bye for now~