as i enter my last post..before i relieve myself of this unsettling agony inside of me..i cant pinpoint it..most of it attributes to exam stress i guess..well it will all soon end..the knife shld be sharp..slide easily through the flesh..and when i see crimson..i know itz about time..JUZ JOKING LAH!

about the suicide part at least..if u ppl had realised i was being suicidal..if u tot i was cutting tomato..or some papaya..find a wall..bang hard..well but im realli so stressed up..no one understands me..everyone tinks im smart..brilliant..the know all geek from outer space..when i say i duno something..it wil end up a joke..when i tink im stupid..some witty moron wil say wad does dat make them..wadeva man..well perhaps they are juz trying to uphold my ego..cant realli decide now..unstable..

this thing is killing me..i duno how to let it out..playing games doesn work..listening to music abit..those who listen to my mp3 player..this post explains the choice of genre rite? restaurant music as SK places it..im juz drowning miself in doing a mathz etc..eases the guilt of underperforming for the last 3+ years..itz not easy being smart..what were those idiots who set the 2001 psle exam paper doing? they could haf set it harder..den i wudn get so much shit all the time..

this days..im moody..eccentric..mood swings..cranky..i need to let it all out..but how? every breath is a sigh..every thought is pessimistic..on top of the exam crap..there are probs with frenz..which is kindo solved now..guess it wasn realli affecting me much in the 1st place..cuz the stone in my heart is still where it lies..other stuff..paranoia engulfs me at times..i feel tired..2 weeks to o lvls..i fear breaking down..when the great Os begin..dat wud be terrible..argh..bear with it..after the Os are over..all will be gone..i see nirvana at the end of the day..bear with it..

my friends..please bear with me..and my rubbish..i be more like me soon..very soon..letz work hard together..and try not to be sarcastic so much..im vulnerable..and might juz take it too hard..im not as strong as i look anymore..

o well..the summary of the long piece of rubbish is im stressed..exagarated alot..dun wori my friends..juz practicing english..

buh bye for now